The gift of grace Sunday, Sep 16 2012 

If I could, I would take charge of my life and make it turn out just right. I can’t. I have tried and failed repeatedly.

Fully functional people are organized, disciplined and able to get what they want out of life. Organization is out of the question for me; the very idea of discipline makes me feel guilty. I have broken virtually every resolution I ever made. And as for getting what I want out of life, what I want most is love, and love comes only as a gift. All I can “do” is be willingly, actively open to receiving the gift.

I know love is a gift because I have experienced more love in my life than I could ever have deserved or earned. I cannot take credit for any of it. It is all grace. I have no doubt that a loving prescence has abided with me over the years, mysteriously weaving love’s presence through my aspirations and failures.

Still, I cannot shake the feeling that I should have done it all by myself. Some tight, addicted voice inside me keeps saying, “You should be on top of things, in control” it is a cop-out to depend on grace.” The voice is old and empty’ I know it is not from my living heart. But it is powerful. For every failure in my life, I feel either guilt or shame, and sometimes both. And it is all right.

It is better than all right, for it has been more my failures than my successes that have opened me to love. When I find myself being overconcerned with efficiency, I turn my attention to the mysterious, amazing grace that has seen me through all my dysfunctions. Sometimes I turn there because I need help. Sometimes I turn in gratitude. But mostly, my turning toward grace is a simple, wordless act of love.

Prayer: God, help me to loosen my compulive grip on myself, and teach me to receive your grace.

-Gerald G. May- excerpt taken from Galatians 2:20-21,  NIV Recovery Devotional Bible

Gratitude Monday, Oct 10 2011 

Say thank you, until you mean it. Thank God for everyone and everything sent your way.

Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. It turns problems into gifts, failures into successes, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes into important events. It can turn an existence into a real life, and disconnected situations into important and beneficial lessons. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.

Gratitude make things right.

Gratitude turns negative energy into positive energy. There is no situation or circumstance so small or large that it is not susceptible to gratitude’s power. We can start with who we are and what we have today, apply gratitude, then let it work its magic.

Say thank you, until you mean it. If you say it long enough, you will believe it.

Prayer: God, help me to shine the transforming light of gratitude on all the circumstances of my life.

-Melody Beattie- excerpt taken from 1 Thessalonians 1:2  NIV Recovery Devotional Bible

The Gift of Grace Friday, Sep 16 2011 

If I could, I would take charge of my life and make it turn out just right. I can’t. I have tried and failed repeatedly.

Fully functional people are organized, disciplined and able to get what they want out of life. Organization is out of the question for me; the very idea of discipline makes me feel guilty. I have broken virtually every resolution I ever made. And as for getting what I want out of life, what I want most is love, and love comes only as a gift. All I can “do” is be willingly, actively open to receiving the gift.

I know love is a gift because I have experienced more love in my life than I could ever have deserved or earned. I cannot take credit for any of it. It is all grace. I have no doubt that a loving presence has abided with me over the years, mysteriously weaving love’s presence through my aspirations and failures.

Still, I cannot shake the feeling that I should have done it all by myself. Some tight, addicted voice inside me keeps saying, “You should be on top of things, in control; it is a cop-out to depend on grace.” The voice is old and empty; I know it is not from my living heart. But it is powerful. For every failure in my life, I feel either guilt or shame, and sometimes both. And it is all right.

It is better than all right, for it has been more my failures than my successes that have opened me to love. When I find myself being overconcerned with efficiency, I turn my attention to the mysterious, amazing grace that has seen me through all my dysfunctions. Sometimes I turn there because I need help. Sometimes I turn in gratitude. But mostly, my turning toward grace is a simple, wordless act of love.

Prayer: God, help me to loosen my compulsive grip on myself, and teach me to receive your grace.

-Gerald G. May- excerpt taken from Galations 2:20-21  NIV Recovery Devotional Bible